You, Me and Love

Down the line
It will be only between You and Mine

My love is pure and selfless
don't rate me,
don't compare me,
just feel me.
Down the line
It will be only between You and Mine

My love is like flowing river
don't stop me
don't desert me
make a bridge if possible
Down the line
It will be only between You and Mine

My love is illimitable,
don't ignore me,
don't leave me,
if possible forget me.
Down the line
It will be only between You and Mine

If you feel, do say it
If you don't feel, never  regret it
I will love you as I am doing.
Down the line
It will be only between You and Mine

PS: Dedicated to Subbu ,all belonging to one sided true love fraternity(if exists) and
Sup my best friend who inspire me to write.

surprised!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it was burning in chest, stomach is moving upside down,
like everything will come out.
he always felt nauseated whenever he met her.

its a surprise visit for her,
he just want to support her and  keep her smiling.
he dont know whether she will be there or not.
even he dont know whether he will find her ? .
he dont know how he will locate her because if he ask her then it's not a surprise
its just a plain risk, driving is hot especially in summers.
carrying a bag on his lanky body, he park his bike at PGI parking.

Its was his first time at AIIMS.
first he dont know what he should do.
why he came here? shall he call her.?
will she ever understand my love , my purpose of coming there?
amidst of all such questions flooding his mind,
he gathered courage and went to enquiry office.

haan madam, ek enquiry karni karni hai?
madam: puchiye ?

Mr K  K Sharma ka ward number bata sakti hai?
madam: kya bimaari hai?

partial paralysis hai
madam: g ward 7th floor
thanks madam.

he was feeling uneasy but to see her reaction when she see find him?
will she smile, will she shout or may be her parents are there instead of her?
may be she was not there.
will she recognise what all effort he made to surprise her ?

AIIMS is very big , it reminds him of IITs huge concrete structures,
lots of  tree and well planned development.
the only difference  is presence of large crowd .

the journey from enquiry office to 7 th floor g block was insightful.
In moment of exhilaration , he used stair cases.
first time in his life carrying a bag  on his back , was a very tiring journey.
he really felt his lungs will exhaust,

lesson no 1:
yeh army wale bhi badey solid hote hai, kya stamina hota hai.
100 kilo ka wajan uthate hue bhi kitna lambey fasley kat dete hain..

he could felt his heartbeats and  he himself dont know
after how much time he had done such a physical activity.

it took five minutes to regain his senses.
more questions flooding his mind.

har jagah patient hai, kya bolenge.
kisi ne puch lia  patient se kya rishta hai, kya kahenge?

seriously he was feeling anxious and was going nuts.
idhar udhar dekha, thoda courage kiya ,move ahead.
he was numb at his first sight.

aise aise patient dekhe ki ,
bas kya bole pyaar out, philosphy in.
aisa manjar dekh kar na phat jati hai.
aadmi kya kabhie sochta hai ki woh aisi conditon main hoga.
my brain had a black out.

he was numb.

lesson no 2:
doctors are almost equivalent to god.


the place is driving him crazy.
he felt like vomiting

there are souls with life but no movement
 then he realized we always complain about life ,
but was his life really worth complaining?

sincerely we never count our blessings.
he really feel for her, how she spend her time here?
only silence, my love for her is increasing.


he cant find her.
she never even bothered to tell me how she feels coming here.
may be she has adjusted her to these circumstances.
he felt that  he could  never understand her.

pata nai kya chalta hai,
kuch batati bhi nahi hai.
but he love her............
now he was  SURPRISED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lesson no 3:

never try to give lot of surprise because when life surprises you, you hardly like it.

last 4 hours flash in my mind.

PS:
1. its my first short story. AIIMS are one of reputated medical institutes in India.
2.thanks rahul for his critical review of my blog.

random thoughts

 according to the thermodynamics law,more the unstability of the system, 
more is the entropy.entropy defines the randomness of the system.


same with my case, my mind is full of random thoughts,
flashes of memories etc etc
because of the unstability in my life.


i will use tabulation method to describe some of the random thoughts ,
 may be blogging help me in reducing my randomness in my mind.


1.love hurts n how much u are successful, if u fail in this , 
u feel u have lost ur way n purpose.
may be the feeling sinks away with time but the instant feeling was terrible.
this part canbe called as BREAK UP or for some ditching many 
synonyms but the same feeling ofloosing,lost out n sucked up.


2.life is sucking when such things became integral part of 
your life.things worsen whenyour professional life follow
 synchronously with your personal life.


3. confusion in love is the most dangerous thing.
everybody involve in such case will suffer.
 for eg.
A loves B  also vice versa. now some how C came in picture. 
if C is in picture, it mean then automatically the scene between A &B is not fine. 
A & C both love B.
there is also a D who also love  in B but unaware of C.
now wat happens,
confusion and only confusion, doubts.everybody is suffering. 
you cant accuse anybody particular is
wrong.actually this is destiny, A B C & D  are destined to suffer.
no body is right and wrong relatively to each other.
B is in dilemma.hope, dat B takes a wise decision.
indecisiveness is sign of randomness.just like my random thoughts.


i wish humans have made such a machine which can tell u who loves most?
nobody can tell who can love you most or who is most eligible.
in my 25 yr of life, love is the most complex thing i have came across.
at last i end the blog on following lines:
Never go back into old love, no matter how strong it was....
becoz its like reading a book again and again when you already know how it ends!!



but who will decide what is true love and old love?


even me too confused , just on the journey to understand Love


with a hope and an advice from my fellow friend:


terms like old & new love relate to circumstantial thinking, if ur so called "old love" was not successful that means maybe you havent experienced true love at all. get over it and get ready, maybe smday u'll find sm1 worthy.


PS:
the only good thing amidst of all this INDIA won the world cup. 
we are now the world champs.


finally , D is the last man standing just like nice guy trying not to finish last.

waiting or forgetting

आपके हिसाब से किसी का इंतज़ार करना आसान होता  है या किसी 
को भूलना कठिन होता है.एक उदहारण देता हूँ जैसे आप किसी को प्यार
करते है पर जिससे प्यार करते है वो किसी और से प्यार करती है .

तो क्या करना चाहिए ?

इंतज़ार या भूलना ? बहुत  मुश्किल प्रश्न है? 

But there are two points to note:

1.Why waiting for a person who dont love you?

2.Loving a person who dont love you is mistake?


I think nobody can give the correct and clear answer.
love is such a complex thing or do we complicate it?

Forgetting anything is very painful if the thing has some
 bitterness associated with it.contrary waiting is equally 
painful when you know that the outcomes are not favourable.

I believe in waiting atleast there is some hope and chance
 associated with it.
May Be some day fortune of wheel turns in your side.

May Be the dream which you have may fulfilled.

May Be the person  you love recognise your efforts ?

'may be'  has very low probability, and highly  risky  
but MAY BE highly rewarding.

Summarizing ,in one line :

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.

pyaar impossible.........

Have u heard the song alisha... and pyaar impossible....... of movie

pyaar impossible ?the movie is about geek looking guy uday chopra and

our own desi girl priyanka chopra studying in some foreign college.

uday chopra is looking more idiotic den his former movies.

he is also the producer n writer of the movie n thus for the first time

he cast himself very well coz he  suits this character,playing  the 
character of nerd with spects and horrible hairstyle who is in

onesided love with priyanka chopra playing a sexy modern babe ,
who do skating,dance n riding on cycles more than studies.

i tel u why i write on dis ?this story is similar to ours,like our hero

jo bahut hi padaku appearing wala hai,and our heroine who is more like 

a model and less like a student,who is afraid of confessing his love 

to her may be coz of looks or some inferiority complex.its about them

who like our hero has onesided lovestory n can never speak i love you.

hum logon ki tarah jinhe lagta hai ki they r nt gud luking as the girl

( mind it girl is realy beautiful) and why would she love me etc etc.

actualy for them love is really impossible ..........


dats the plot of the movie n i know in movie really our hero will get the

alisha (priyanka). i dont know how either the hero will trnsform

 from nerd to machoman jst like surinder sahni to

 raj or girl will fall for nerd realising the importance of true love jst like

 tani ji  find in suri ji arey wahi movie yash chopra ki rab ne bana di jodi.

yeh bhi yash chopra ki hai, phir se risk le rahe. yeh uday chopra ki
 fourth inning hai shayad isbar retirement le le.

par yeh to thi reel life bt real life aisa kuch hota hai kya ?

i dont think so.?bt in real life i have seen lot of marriages in which the
 guy is realy idiotic i mean jisne khali jindagi bhar pada hai and unki
 wife maal hoti hai.sorry for the choice of word but this is what we
 generally use.i think the chance of pyaar impossible of nerd + beautiful 
girl has very low probablity somewhat like 10 ki power -6  
ie one in million case.i wish hamara bhi pyaar kabhie pyaar

impossible se pyar possible ho jaye.
so uday chopra to lucky hai unka shayad beda par ho jaye hum logo ka
 kya hoga? kya apna no ayega ?

kya apna\aapka  pyaar impossible se pyaar possible hoga?

chalo i leave all this answer to time.wish  luck to me n million others .

ps:

agar kisi ka pyaar possible ho gaya ho to tell me by posting.