surprised!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it was burning in chest, stomach is moving upside down,
like everything will come out.
he always felt nauseated whenever he met her.

its a surprise visit for her,
he just want to support her and  keep her smiling.
he dont know whether she will be there or not.
even he dont know whether he will find her ? .
he dont know how he will locate her because if he ask her then it's not a surprise
its just a plain risk, driving is hot especially in summers.
carrying a bag on his lanky body, he park his bike at PGI parking.

Its was his first time at AIIMS.
first he dont know what he should do.
why he came here? shall he call her.?
will she ever understand my love , my purpose of coming there?
amidst of all such questions flooding his mind,
he gathered courage and went to enquiry office.

haan madam, ek enquiry karni karni hai?
madam: puchiye ?

Mr K  K Sharma ka ward number bata sakti hai?
madam: kya bimaari hai?

partial paralysis hai
madam: g ward 7th floor
thanks madam.

he was feeling uneasy but to see her reaction when she see find him?
will she smile, will she shout or may be her parents are there instead of her?
may be she was not there.
will she recognise what all effort he made to surprise her ?

AIIMS is very big , it reminds him of IITs huge concrete structures,
lots of  tree and well planned development.
the only difference  is presence of large crowd .

the journey from enquiry office to 7 th floor g block was insightful.
In moment of exhilaration , he used stair cases.
first time in his life carrying a bag  on his back , was a very tiring journey.
he really felt his lungs will exhaust,

lesson no 1:
yeh army wale bhi badey solid hote hai, kya stamina hota hai.
100 kilo ka wajan uthate hue bhi kitna lambey fasley kat dete hain..

he could felt his heartbeats and  he himself dont know
after how much time he had done such a physical activity.

it took five minutes to regain his senses.
more questions flooding his mind.

har jagah patient hai, kya bolenge.
kisi ne puch lia  patient se kya rishta hai, kya kahenge?

seriously he was feeling anxious and was going nuts.
idhar udhar dekha, thoda courage kiya ,move ahead.
he was numb at his first sight.

aise aise patient dekhe ki ,
bas kya bole pyaar out, philosphy in.
aisa manjar dekh kar na phat jati hai.
aadmi kya kabhie sochta hai ki woh aisi conditon main hoga.
my brain had a black out.

he was numb.

lesson no 2:
doctors are almost equivalent to god.


the place is driving him crazy.
he felt like vomiting

there are souls with life but no movement
 then he realized we always complain about life ,
but was his life really worth complaining?

sincerely we never count our blessings.
he really feel for her, how she spend her time here?
only silence, my love for her is increasing.


he cant find her.
she never even bothered to tell me how she feels coming here.
may be she has adjusted her to these circumstances.
he felt that  he could  never understand her.

pata nai kya chalta hai,
kuch batati bhi nahi hai.
but he love her............
now he was  SURPRISED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lesson no 3:

never try to give lot of surprise because when life surprises you, you hardly like it.

last 4 hours flash in my mind.

PS:
1. its my first short story. AIIMS are one of reputated medical institutes in India.
2.thanks rahul for his critical review of my blog.

losing somebody

क्या अपने किसी को खोया है ?

 मैं किसी break up की बात नहीं  कर  रहा  या किसी ने आपको छोड़ दिया है ?

 क्या वाकई मैं आपको लगता है की आपने किसी को खोया है?

oops, actually i m talking about loss of someone in physical sense.

loss of  the person from your daily life.

even if you want to see that person, want tofix up everything

with her but sorry you cant see because that person is nomore
present in this world.

still you dont get it.

losing here  mean that person dont exist anymore.

seriously ek baar just imagine that have you ever imagine how your 

life will be without the person whom you daily see, who is part of your life,

whom you love most ? he could be your friends, relative, peers,best friend 

your love,parents.

seriously how many give a thought about that.

we are so busy and mechanical that we dont care about all this.

the most precious things are most simple things in this world.

a mom's hug, father back up,your friends company and your love support.

but do we really care, everyday we have some targets,professional work,

priorities,planning but dont have time for our loved one.

one should know, that life is very precious.

we never count our blessing, but busy keep criticizing and nagging  

with our loved ones.

please guys, give  it a break. just enjoy the moment,

live your life .you never know KAL HO NA HO.

Advice: just make the best of each moment you are spending

with your family and loved one because ek baar koi chala gaya 

to wapas nahi hai.

yeh chemistry ka reaction nahi hai, kuch conditions change

kar do to reaction reversible ho jaye .

PS:

1. dedicated to all who lost their loved or close ones,whose emptiness no body can feel.

2.dedicated to the person whose smile is best,who loves my writing and i love her most in this world.

3.first time i m writing blog in morning.leaving office in while.

4.love you all my friends,one sided love n my family. sorry i hurt you sometime but i love you all.

Please Comment .

random thoughts

 according to the thermodynamics law,more the unstability of the system, 
more is the entropy.entropy defines the randomness of the system.


same with my case, my mind is full of random thoughts,
flashes of memories etc etc
because of the unstability in my life.


i will use tabulation method to describe some of the random thoughts ,
 may be blogging help me in reducing my randomness in my mind.


1.love hurts n how much u are successful, if u fail in this , 
u feel u have lost ur way n purpose.
may be the feeling sinks away with time but the instant feeling was terrible.
this part canbe called as BREAK UP or for some ditching many 
synonyms but the same feeling ofloosing,lost out n sucked up.


2.life is sucking when such things became integral part of 
your life.things worsen whenyour professional life follow
 synchronously with your personal life.


3. confusion in love is the most dangerous thing.
everybody involve in such case will suffer.
 for eg.
A loves B  also vice versa. now some how C came in picture. 
if C is in picture, it mean then automatically the scene between A &B is not fine. 
A & C both love B.
there is also a D who also love  in B but unaware of C.
now wat happens,
confusion and only confusion, doubts.everybody is suffering. 
you cant accuse anybody particular is
wrong.actually this is destiny, A B C & D  are destined to suffer.
no body is right and wrong relatively to each other.
B is in dilemma.hope, dat B takes a wise decision.
indecisiveness is sign of randomness.just like my random thoughts.


i wish humans have made such a machine which can tell u who loves most?
nobody can tell who can love you most or who is most eligible.
in my 25 yr of life, love is the most complex thing i have came across.
at last i end the blog on following lines:
Never go back into old love, no matter how strong it was....
becoz its like reading a book again and again when you already know how it ends!!



but who will decide what is true love and old love?


even me too confused , just on the journey to understand Love


with a hope and an advice from my fellow friend:


terms like old & new love relate to circumstantial thinking, if ur so called "old love" was not successful that means maybe you havent experienced true love at all. get over it and get ready, maybe smday u'll find sm1 worthy.


PS:
the only good thing amidst of all this INDIA won the world cup. 
we are now the world champs.


finally , D is the last man standing just like nice guy trying not to finish last.